Being me

Endlessly i’ll feel
I’m a shit.

Never as creative
Never as funny
Never as clever
Never as openmind
Never as close
Never
Never as I used to be

I lost my self
In your crowded brain

You’ll stay closely
Until you get me.
You’ll stay wounding
Until you break me.

But I always be me
As I tried to be
As I’m being

Crawling skin and bones
Body teared by feelings
Dry blood running through my veins
I found my mistakes in my steps
Which I could never erase
My forever victim me?

Don’t wanna have bad feelings
Don’t wanna punish me
Don’t wanna see me ugly in the mirror.

But I always be me
As I only know to be
But I always be me
Maybe
Cause I don’t know how to be
A diferent me.